Sunday, March 23, 2014

The Altar

"You look like you're going to cry."

Yep... That's where I was at tonight.  And I'm grateful for God placing people in my life who know that when I say "I'm fine" it's a huge lie.  Praise God for using these dear friends to speak truth into my life.

I just needed a reminder that there's no shame within my scars.  God truly does work all things together for my good.  Somehow, everything works out.

Had you told me seven years ago that I would move across the country and get a Master's degree (and be single!) I would've looked at you like you were crazy.  Had you told that girl, who had completely walked away from God and wasn't even sure she knew if He existed, that she would be leading worship and loving it and relying on Jesus seven years from that moment, I would've laughed at you.

What happened back then was evil and designed to break me.  And it didn't.  And believe me, I definitely tried to check out early of the mess that is life.  But God clearly had other plans for me.  And I find again and again that I am amazed that He cares that much about me.  Because I know I really don't deserve it.  And I still question why He would want to use me in His plan.  I don't have all the answers, but I know He loves me with a love that I can't even begin to describe.

"But in all these things we overwhelmingly conquer through Him who loved us" (Romans 8:37).

"There's a place, a place of healing
There is no shame within your scars
This place is sacred, this place is secret
Here in the presence of a Holy God
Here in the presence of a Holy God"

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